MAKOTO NAEGI < 苗木誠 > (
superordinary) wrote2013-03-10 03:42 pm
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It's not my right to dictate what you feel or how you choose to forgive. But I...I want to be the person who protects you like you protected me. Not because I feel guilty about what I did during that trial, but because I...
Because I believe in you, like you believed in me.
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...Can I ask why it's so hard to understand for "someone like you"? Forgiving people...that's something that comes naturally to me. I don't think you should be blamed for wanting to survive that messed up trial.
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For someone like me, who's been raised to see the world like that, it's hard to understand a decision that's been made from the heart. Especially when it's something like forgiveness, which requires setting aside other factors for the sake of...kindness. And decency.
I don't...forgive well. It's hard for me, and doesn't come naturally. At school, I treated it like a betrayal when there were things you wouldn't tell me, rather than trusting you or trying to understand. But the things I did to you were much worse, and even when I know I deserved it, you haven't blamed me.
From a position of objectivity, I've benefited from your kindness on many occasions, and several of them were when I deserved much worse. It's...unbalanced, to be able to look at how I've treated you next to how you've treated me. That's why, for a while, I've thought that it might have been easier if you'd hated me, because...at least it would've been the natural consequence of my actions.
But when I say that I want to protect you, but not because I feel guilty...
What I mean is that...it's not because I'm trying to make up for something, that I care about you. I care about you because you're Naegi-kun. Because...you're an important person to me. I don't want something like that to be because I feel indebted or obligated. It's because what I feel is...
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Hope. Among other things.
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you are the protagooooshit
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carrying you around like a sack of produce is my job
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you can see the ahoge and the hoodie
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text; okay back to being serious and in character
I've said this before but you really have changed. The Kirigiri-san I first met would never have been so open or even considered writing what you just wrote, I think. I remember something you told me when we first spent time together, just the two of us -- "There's no value in letting others know how you feel."
And now you're here telling me all of this. So... thank you, Kirigiri-san. I appreciate it. You're an important person and you mean a lot to me.
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...It's wrong to say I'm glad about the things that happened at school. But I'm glad that I met you, Naegi-kun.
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